Been rather sick lately, always needing to go to the restroom whenever I eat ice-cream.. nowadays have to stay away from it.. -_- fave food.. how to drink my fave Pure Chocolate From Coffeebean?? wah.. sian lah..

Wanting to call Faisal, and just want to hear his voice. Last friday he cancelled the movie outing, since he had Archery training practice that ended later than usual. apparently, he called me twice, since he couldn't contact me. I didn't bring my hp that day, and I had a feeling that he tried to reach me furtilely. I called him thru public phone, and got through.

4 more days before I go to Kuala Lumpur.. with my friends!! woohoo!! can't wait to shop over there.. and it's about time I take a break too. My sis mentioned she also wanted to go to Bangkok, but it is not confirmed yet.. before i come back to face the pressure at work before the Membership meeting, and eventually the Exco Meeting. I dunno whether I can face the pressure that I exprienced from the previous meetings..

Praying to HIM lately, just thinking of my mom, my friends and my family members. Sad, tired and ranting in pain, I could hope the problem would be solved. I know it would be. It is just a matter of time and the way. hope tat it isn't too much..

Told my mum about both me and Faisal today, and it's about time too. She started the topic, and I mentioned that I already have one... ;b she also had seen him before twice, once during the hospital visit at SGH, when I was hospitalised for eye infection. ( for your information, my eyesight is slightly distorted, but it is better now than the last time, when I really couldn't stand the sunlight. Haix.. it's only when our body get sick then we get serious about it..)

And the second time, during the HAri Raya visit at my house.. my mum recognised him and talked to him for a while.. From there, she had a good first impression of him.. Imma so proud of him.. heehee..

Today i slacked at home, and kept my mum company. she always complained that both my sister and i always go out and the home was lonely.. She needs some companionship. MAke it a family day for just 2 of us.. We watched tv, ate together.. again, it's been a long time since I stayed at home..

After this, I need to exercise.. been a glutton lately, must tone up and get ready for the next day.. hopefully I can slim down a bit lah.. so I can but better clothes.. heehee..

Orite, got to go now... Adios!!

lol..

another day has ended, and it was the most peaceful day i had in the workplace. At least, the workload seemed to be less today.

right now I am cooking porridge for my sis' dinner, and I knoe she will be coming home soon. lol.. I lurfe her soo much. Apparently she had to wear braces and she couldn't eat properly.. poor her. She had to resort eating porridge and other soft things.

For a long time I haven't tuned in this J/K pop digital radio station and I'm hearing 1 slow English song, currently my favourite. but it is sung in Japanese version.

can you give another kiss.. (the rest I can't remember.)

Speaking of Japan, My boss, Mr Lincoln Sim and Mr Kenneth Liang will be going to Japan for a meeting. The Japanese Society of Quality will be hosting them for company bodies associated with Quality Industry. Some members that I know are

Just the idea of going and staying in Japan has been a long cherished dream of mine.

toot

typing this befor I start work again..


Hehe... Sneaking here for a peek before my boss comes back from his lunch.. today is a typical day for me, just came back from lunch and just dilly dallying. I finished all the work already leh..

so now.. preparing myself to do brain dead work..


wah!!!! ><

another event had passed..

just finished updating the post dated 27 february 2005. u guys just read it again lah..

Yesterday is another day passed. I know RSP held another graduation event for kids. it started in the morning whre I opened the training room to see Ruzaini and Sabira. the event started with a few hiccups, but it went well. I was in charge of the registration. unfortunately I didn't show up for the introduction of the group members.

after the event I went to meet Hajjar, just to catch up with the old times. we went to East Coast, and after buying some food, we headed to the rock jetty. from there, I told her what was going on with my life, my guy, and my friends and especially about the 26 February 2005 event.

Then she told me what's going on with her life. I shall not go into detail over here, but all i can say that a lot of things happened to her, and as a result, she became very sick.

I just patted her on the back and the head, saying nuthing. tear rolled down her eyes, and I also cried. I cried for her, and I let out all the frustrations and the sadness and my fear in me.

the sound of waves crashing against the rock jetty was balm to our souls. a little. but I gotta admit that we needed each other's company, and no matter what, we will always meet up and our friendship will still be the same.

thanks hajjar.

yesterday was a day that's filled with good and bad.

the bad thing, I can't explain here.. coz it is confidential. but when it comes to the good part, ahh.. that one I can ssay..

as you guys know I have already joined the lindy hop classes, and last night was the 2nd session. I had a really rough day, and the events were wearing me out. I nearly skipped the class, and running through my mind was the 1st session, which didn't go well. low esteem, sad, and demotivated, I had to drag myself to the class. and to make matters worse, the train stopped functioning for a while.

but things started to get better. the guy who humiliated me, wasn't there with his friend. mst of the time, I get to partner with an instructor. we spent the first 10 mins revising the previous dance moves. we did, and I managed to get the hang of it. both of them introduced more and more moves, and I got dizzy.

after each successful finish, I cheered myself on and laughed with my partner. then d instructor who taught the class managed to dance with me, and he pointed out my mistakes. I corrected it and in the end, enjoyed myself.

but the most memorable period was during the ending session. More instructors came and grabbed the chance. again, I partnered with my first instructor, and we practised the moves. then they wanted us to continue dancing even though we reached the end of the steps. we both did, and in the corner of my eye, i noticed the others had stopped dancing ad turned to watch us. I just focussed on the moment and enjoyed every minute of the free dance. whatever my lead wanted me to do, I just followed. the funny thing is, I just know instinctively what my lead was going to do next and I made sure my moves complemented his perfectly.

we even danced from the beginning till the end of the lesson!! wah.. shiok babe. needless to say, those minutes were the unforgettable moments of my life.

From there, i understood the meaning behind lindy hop. and it inspired me to go for the next class..

but for now I need to practise.. Adios!!

the happiest day of my life.

Yesterday is a day filled with laughter and joy. What do I mean by that? the day started when I came into the office early to prepare for my intake exam with mr Soh. anyway, the students are really particular about the mistakes when I processed the exam paper, and pointed out to the invigilator. So I spent the day running to and fro from my office to the exam class, explaining and clarifying the mistakes.

I was supposed to stay back an hour and go out at 2. No joke man, considering that we both went home late after an event that we organised at Nee Soon South CC the previous night. (we left around 9 pm.) then I rushed into the office 1 hour early to prepare ourselves for the invigilation of the exam. (7.30 am) then Mr Soh told me that I have to stay back an hour just to help him carry the stuff back into the office. (that would be around 2 pm.)

But I managed call Ryan and he told me that all my friends are in the Youth Park, doing some volunteering service. I was delighted and i managed to negotiate with my boss to let me go early.. haha..

when I reached Ceneileisure, I shopped around for a pair of comfy slippers. My feet were aching from all walking around in heels. I think if I continue to wear heels yesterday, I would have collapsed.

when I reached Youth Park, my eyes were already half closed. I strolled around for them. I spotted Ryan first and he yelled out my name. but the others were pretty busy doing their own things. the malay volunteers requested that I sign my particulars on a piece of paper and pointed to Rebecca and the other SC members. ( some of them I do not know..) when they looked up at me, they exclaimed in surprise and guided me. Hanrong commented he wanted to paint blue.

then Kan Leong spotted me, and he waved to me. I waved back. Haha.. KL, My good friend in class K.E. i immediately clicked with him the moment we talked inside the class, it happens that my group was doing project work. talked non -stop till I really have to leave for class. from tat day, I guess we will always remain good friends.

after I hand printed on a piece of paper, I was directed to the other side, where Kan Leong and also the other guys were on standby. I knelt down to position my hand on top of the pail. Kok Yen and Steven looked up and yelled in surprise.

"DILLA!!!"

I was shocked by their response and almost sat down on my butt.

"Hey, long time since I last saw you.." Kok yen added. Steven nodded.

"what are you doing now?"

"Working." I replied to kokyen's qn.

" As what?"

"Admin assistant."

I guess that moment filled my heart with goodness and joy. the greatest gift that my friends have are their presence, and nothing can ever replace them. just to be able to see them, together, is enough for me. I even saw Sir Oon, and his daughter, Adeline.
it is a rare moment just to see them together in one day, except for Hajjar. I asked around for her, and I was told that she was sick. I was worried about her.

but my sleepines overcame it.
My eyes were half-closed most of the time, and GAry and Millie stood in front of me. I believe Millie did something to me, and I jut stared at them blankly for a while. I chatted with them for a while.

I went on to mingle with the rest, ans finally went down to sit down at a corner. Kan Leong and Eddie joined me, and we chatted. Eddie had no idea who i am. (Until KL refreshed his memory.)

I joined faisal, whose job was to hang up the hand printed papers. He spotted me, and to catch my attention, he poked me at the side. he knows that my weakness is around my stomach and sides. u know lah.. if kanna poked at d sides, I jump up a mile.. no kidding.

I played around with him, doing the same thing. Suddenly he defended himself, and poked at me repeatedly. He swung his arms around me and continued the same thing.

"Adilla, you're from work?"

I nodded.

" what you plan to do after this?"

" I dunno, I wanna hang out with them."

"At around 4 pm, I need to go."

"how come?"

" my friend's mum just passed away. I consider his mom like my own."

"icic. okie den."


I sat donw again and intended to get some rest. but GAry gathered the volunteers and asked them for PR work. I just stared at them from afar. you know what? running around and doing some work is the last thing of my mind. All I wanted to do is to sleep. haha.. but gary spotted me and asked me to follow them. I just followed them behind with rebecca.

After the PR work, they got ready to leave for dinner. it was already 4 plus, and I missed him already.

I went off with Millie, who wanted to buy something at Heeren's. we talked along the way, and i culd see that our friendship bond getting tighter. we headed to Millenia Walk, where the rest wanted to buy something - candies after our dinner.

I relished every moment that we hung out together, and Kok yen wanted me to stick to him. During our dinner at Burger King, I chatted with him, and both of us were really happy to see the rest. I joked with Steven, Han Rong, and Kok Yen.

Millie talked about the investiture, and she wanted to do the same dance for the previous investiture. Ryan gave sume ideas for the investiture. alas, the idea is great, but she doesn't even have time to chereograph the whole thing.

Soon, it was time to go home. During the walk home, I was accidentally left behind. coz the rest didn't notice that I still haven't crossed the road. I waited for the road to clear, in the corner of my eye, I noticed that the whole gang had stopped in their tracks and looked around. Millie ran back to where I was still standing, and I went after them, grinning cheekily.

"I tot that you are already at the front." GAry commented after I walked towards the group.

"haha.. nope. you guys didn't notice." I replied.

it was just like the old times.



Gary, Millie, Hajjar, Ryan, Sir Oon, Adeline, Rebecca, Faisal, Doreen, Intan, Kok Leong, Eddie, Kok yen, Steven and the rest,

thank you for giving me the best times of my life. you really supported me when I was hospitalised, gave me laughter and joy, all the fun times that we had together. there might be some times where we went through some conflict, and somehow the group wasn't as tight as before. Now is March, 2 months before you guys graduate from ITE Clementi or Tampines. I seriously hope that we could get together one day, this time, all of us happy and just enjoying each other's company. This is my dream, and a dream that I hope would be fulfilled one day...

surviving after lindy hop..

I have survived. Survived the first session of Lindy Hop.

In case you dun know, today is the first session of the long awaited Lindy Hop. I dun dare to look forward to it, since it was postponed once. I waited inside MAc's for a while to fill my stomach, and waited for the last minutes. I went in with a glowing heart, but ended up feeling my heart had gotten trampled. (I got humiliated by a guy, and he's not even an instructor.)

I know myself. I know that I am a slow learner, and I learn things slower than others. So I am not surprised to see others getting it right the first time. But I'm willing to learn. So i hope that there is a friendly instructor who wants me to progress. Even if I had to spend hours dancing alone (it feels awkward btw.) just to practise the dance moves, every day, every night, I would willingly sacrifice the hours. Why? For my passion in dancing.

Besides being a slow learner, Lindy Hop requires you to have a partner when you dance. I tell you, it is totally different from what I have learnt in my past experiences. The mentality and the coordination that you have to get with your partner are the difficult things you have to overcome.

Learning how to do Lindy Hop is like a baby trying to learn how to walk. I had to change my mindset and my moves to suit my partner. I'm no longer free, dancing to suit my own pace. It is a total learning experience. Never had I need to change due to difficult situation or environment.
I still remember my friend saying this, never mind how insecure you feel when you do something new, it's your passion that makes the difference.

Now I'm feeling whether I have signed up for the wrong course or not.